I feel it’s a little of column A and a little of column B.
But what happens is all the good stuff, the bad stuff, everything in between, it just stacks up and stacks up. You get bored with a lot of things because you’ve seen it all before so many times. I cannot stand “new” movies because I’ve seen them all before in other forms. I am disappointed by tragic things humans do, but even with current problems in society, it’s new specifics but the broad story is the same. I see people debating things that they were debating 30 years ago. I see people voting against their best interest just a few years after doing the same thing.
What burns you out on life broadly, not in a dark, depressing way, is just the utter lack of novelty after a while. You will want to see more new things, you will want to travel and try new foods and experience new things, but even that all starts to feel cyclical.
After a point, and I’m not there yet, I am quite certain that I will feel a draw to a great unknown, because there’s nothing new left here to surprise me.
I’m not the penguin walking to the mountains yet, my community needs me and I need them… but I always have a side-eye to the mountains and a little voice in the back of my head: “Someday.”
I have delved deep and hard into my own limitations and contradictions and predictable responses as a life form and as a complicated human entity. That part is even more soul-crushing because if I have learned how limited I really am and how predictable my brain is, and it means that the average person who doesn’t meditate or contemplate their own thinking must be either far more trapped in cyclic behavior, or even more crushing… far happier.
I feel it’s a little of column A and a little of column B.
But what happens is all the good stuff, the bad stuff, everything in between, it just stacks up and stacks up. You get bored with a lot of things because you’ve seen it all before so many times. I cannot stand “new” movies because I’ve seen them all before in other forms. I am disappointed by tragic things humans do, but even with current problems in society, it’s new specifics but the broad story is the same. I see people debating things that they were debating 30 years ago. I see people voting against their best interest just a few years after doing the same thing.
What burns you out on life broadly, not in a dark, depressing way, is just the utter lack of novelty after a while. You will want to see more new things, you will want to travel and try new foods and experience new things, but even that all starts to feel cyclical.
After a point, and I’m not there yet, I am quite certain that I will feel a draw to a great unknown, because there’s nothing new left here to surprise me.
I’m not the penguin walking to the mountains yet, my community needs me and I need them… but I always have a side-eye to the mountains and a little voice in the back of my head: “Someday.”
Are you also cyclical? If not, why are you special? If yes, how can you get bored as that would be something new?
I have delved deep and hard into my own limitations and contradictions and predictable responses as a life form and as a complicated human entity. That part is even more soul-crushing because if I have learned how limited I really am and how predictable my brain is, and it means that the average person who doesn’t meditate or contemplate their own thinking must be either far more trapped in cyclic behavior, or even more crushing… far happier.