On a more serious note, nice one.
In my twenties and very early thirties I was convinced (and planned) to be dead by 40. I figured what’s the point of getting old etc AND being depressed etc etc.
Then I met my now wife and everything changed. She didn’t know the true extent of how bad I was, and mostly still doesn’t. No one does because I was a master at hiding it.
To everyone else I was the life of the party, the comic who made everyone laugh etc etc.
I still have my ups and downs, but that’s life. I spend every day trying to make her life better, which doesn’t always happen. But, again, that’s life.
Have you ever considered opening up to her about it? I know it can be really scary, but you don’t have to be alone with those things. I still have things I struggle to open up to my boyfriend about, but we work on it and he’s also gotten better at opening up to me when he has things that weighs on him. It makes it easier to help each other getting through things if you know what the other is carrying around. And I know how hard it is for men especially to be vulnerable, but it might actually help you. And as a woman, I can tell you that it feels truly special when your man opens up to you about things that hurt. It only makes me love mine more whenever he leans on me for emotional support. Yesterday I listened to him for an hour talking about stresses at work and while he couldn’t tell me specifics due to a vow of silence, he still expressed how heavy it was for him and that, that’s why he’s been super tired lately. I could hear in his voice that it eased his heart a bit to be able to talk about it and know I was listening and there with him even if I didn’t know the specifics. It made me happy to know that he felt a bit better after that talk. Especially since he’s always there for me and always supporting me when I’m stumbling. He’s a very independent man and handles his own shit most of the time. Doesn’t want to burden me, but I want to be burdened. I want to know what he struggles with so he doesn’t have to be alone.
I dunno, I think that your wife may really appreciate to know how you feel so she can be there for you when you need her 🤗 it might also be a relief for you to know that you don’t have to carry all that by yourself.
Alright, stop showing off. Crikey!!
On a more serious note, nice one.
In my twenties and very early thirties I was convinced (and planned) to be dead by 40. I figured what’s the point of getting old etc AND being depressed etc etc.
Then I met my now wife and everything changed. She didn’t know the true extent of how bad I was, and mostly still doesn’t. No one does because I was a master at hiding it.
To everyone else I was the life of the party, the comic who made everyone laugh etc etc.
I still have my ups and downs, but that’s life. I spend every day trying to make her life better, which doesn’t always happen. But, again, that’s life.
Have you ever considered opening up to her about it? I know it can be really scary, but you don’t have to be alone with those things. I still have things I struggle to open up to my boyfriend about, but we work on it and he’s also gotten better at opening up to me when he has things that weighs on him. It makes it easier to help each other getting through things if you know what the other is carrying around. And I know how hard it is for men especially to be vulnerable, but it might actually help you. And as a woman, I can tell you that it feels truly special when your man opens up to you about things that hurt. It only makes me love mine more whenever he leans on me for emotional support. Yesterday I listened to him for an hour talking about stresses at work and while he couldn’t tell me specifics due to a vow of silence, he still expressed how heavy it was for him and that, that’s why he’s been super tired lately. I could hear in his voice that it eased his heart a bit to be able to talk about it and know I was listening and there with him even if I didn’t know the specifics. It made me happy to know that he felt a bit better after that talk. Especially since he’s always there for me and always supporting me when I’m stumbling. He’s a very independent man and handles his own shit most of the time. Doesn’t want to burden me, but I want to be burdened. I want to know what he struggles with so he doesn’t have to be alone.
I dunno, I think that your wife may really appreciate to know how you feel so she can be there for you when you need her 🤗 it might also be a relief for you to know that you don’t have to carry all that by yourself.