With respect, I think we’re all reading our own experiences into this. What you are seeing as a “lost” hedonist, I am seeing as a woman who knows what she likes.

Also, please don’t disrespect hedonism. You know one of my favorite hedonistic pleasures? Eating. Big shocker I know. You know what makes food taste better? Cooking it yourself. You know what also makes it taste better? Sharing it with someone.

My absolute favorite hedonistic joy (I have two, same pleasure level, the other one is making music for a large crowd and everyone feels frisson at the same time) is to cook a large meal for people who need it and dine with them. Better than heroin (please don’t test this), better than sex. For me, at least.