Very true. I recently found out that my mom is an extreme covert narcissist and it’s been kinda wild to have a lot of my suspicions confirmed, but yeah. According to my sibs and my boyfriend, I was always her main target and I think it just taught me to expect, accept and seek out abuse because I have been bullied for most of my life by people who have similar traits as my mother. I guess I just bring it out in people when they are around me.

It only started to change right before covid when I had had enough of those types of friendships and started putting more effort into people who were actually nice to me.

Would love to say that it has fixed everything, but nope. Now I just bully myself to feel normal.