No seizures. DTs landed me in the icu a few times with major hallucinations going on.

It was recommended I taper with gabapentin. It helps manage but I still have trouble with nearly nightly sweats and insomnia. I still shake and tremble if I try and do something that requires finesse or dexterity.

A handle EVERY SINGLE DAY is a no, that was overstated. 4 days out of the week, yeah. Red stag was my liquor of choice for a long time. I’d blackout and just keep going until I woke up wherever. Drunk tank, ER, in the grass on the side of the road in the middle of the night.

It’s already imploding. Let’s just implode faster. Push the reset button!

Appreciate that. Counseling is my goal. Never happen, I’m a felon but dreams keep me straight

Edit: spelling

That’s my meme

I have an ex-wife. She didn’t like me drinking either. We were married for 5 years, together for 7. She ultimately ended up cheating and we got divorced.

Anyway, I was sober for the last 2 years of our relationship.

She didn’t cheat because of my drinking. It was just a way out but I can tell you this… her as my wife, I should have just accommodated her wishes when it came to drinking from the get go.

Ultimately I’m sober now and have been but that didn’t have anything to do with the divorce. I still got 50/50 custody because by the time the divorce happened I had been sober for two years and I quit cold turkey. Hardest thing I’ve done.

If you’re drinking that little, there are non alcoholic 0.0 beers you could lean on and maybe ease the two of you.

You still get the refreshing taste and she gets her peace of mind.

I know. I was married too and you have your things and she has your things. You just have to decide if the minimal amount you’re already drinking is worth the altercations.

It isn’t.

I still get urges sometimes but it’s only when life really hands it to me. I still tell myself that all it’s gonna do is speed up the day and put me further behind n accounting for my responsibilities. Which is true. I binge today, I’m out for 2-3 days recouping just to get a right headspace and even then, with where I’m at, probably a month.

My thinking gets to fucking out of whack after a day of drinking that I just can’t do it anymore if I want any control in my life.

Stay in control. If you can’t not have those few beers, even if you feel entitled and it’s not a big deal… resentment can lead to the drinking.

Just think about it. You’re entitled to your own decisions. It doesn’t sound like you’re on the same the level I ever was but it’s a battle I wouldn’t t fight with a spouse.

It’s a battle I would’ve fought before they became my spouse.

Sorry the answer wasn’t so concise. I was drunk everyday and learned to mask it. Some days I failed masking it or shorthanded how much I’d had to drink and it caught up with me.

Have had MANY incidents that would keep the layperson up at night for the rest of their lives. I’m just built different.

I’ve spent a collected 1 year in county jail. 6 months was the longest stretch. I’ve avoided prison but that 6 month stretch made me wish for prison.

I’ll say my boredom now (when I drank it helped speed up the day, I just wanted the day to be over) is constructive. I’m playing piano and guitar again. I’m writing.

Things still suck but I know they’ll suck whether sober or drunk so I just do sober. Saves me money

Edit: also saves me from being alone. I’m in the greatest relationship and I can’t jeopardize that. It means more to me than being numb

It was different every day but the absolute minimum was a 6 pack. That was on a day I had things to do. If I had a day where I had obligations, I’d settle for a six pack with a 6%abv because I could regulate it by the hour because of my body weight.

On average I was drinking a handle a day. Easy.

On days I was trying to “regulate myself” I was still drinking 9%abv IPAs.

Was in it.

Edit: if you start hiding any of your drinking even in the slightest, it’s time for a life change. Also, all of the above was when I was in my early 30s. In my 20s, I was buying 30 packs of Busch daily

My 20s and early thirties are a blur. 2009-2015 is pretty much completely missing from my memory. My 6 year binge (with my overall drinking) might have some presents for me in my future.

I’ve been sober for 2 years but it does scare me that I already did the damage. Oh well I guess. At the time, it was my coping mechanism. I don’t have cravings anymore because now I can clearly see it as poison but the damage might already be done.

Absolutely. There’s still an agenda here. These Epstein list victims are an opportunity

…has joined forces with Democrats…

lol okay. There’s still an agenda here