The most confusing thing for me is I have memories of cuddling with mom and also memories of her yelling at me, and I feel like I randomly shift between two different universes.
Its like when I’m in the good moment, my brain temporarily forgets about the trauma… then when the bad moments come, I wonder if the good memories are even real or have I been daydreaming/hallucinating all this time.
I have intrusive thoughts all the time.
I imagine being like 8 years old and in my parents bed cuddling…
then the next scene is when I try to sleep in my room for some “timeout” cuz my energy is drained and I want some alone time, then I have this thought of like… What if my mom stabs me to death while I’m asleep
The juxtapostion of these two scenes is very weird… creates a very weird feeling within me…
both feeling very emotionally attached… and the simultaneous feeling of dread… of fear…
like y’all ever watched Rick and Morty… like it feel like that type of “vibe” of backstabbing…
The most confusing thing for me is I have memories of cuddling with mom and also memories of her yelling at me, and I feel like I randomly shift between two different universes.
Its like when I’m in the good moment, my brain temporarily forgets about the trauma… then when the bad moments come, I wonder if the good memories are even real or have I been daydreaming/hallucinating all this time.
State-based learning, if you’re curious. For the same reason that studying in the same classroom as where you’ll take the test means a better outcome, the memories you make when you’re happy are easier to recall when you’re happy, and the memories you make when you’re sad are easier to recall when you’re sad.
The most confusing thing for me is I have memories of cuddling with mom and also memories of her yelling at me, and I feel like I randomly shift between two different universes.
Its like when I’m in the good moment, my brain temporarily forgets about the trauma… then when the bad moments come, I wonder if the good memories are even real or have I been daydreaming/hallucinating all this time.
I have intrusive thoughts all the time.
I imagine being like 8 years old and in my parents bed cuddling…
then the next scene is when I try to sleep in my room for some “timeout” cuz my energy is drained and I want some alone time, then I have this thought of like… What if my mom stabs me to death while I’m asleep
The juxtapostion of these two scenes is very weird… creates a very weird feeling within me…
both feeling very emotionally attached… and the simultaneous feeling of dread… of fear…
like y’all ever watched Rick and Morty… like it feel like that type of “vibe” of backstabbing…
State-based learning, if you’re curious. For the same reason that studying in the same classroom as where you’ll take the test means a better outcome, the memories you make when you’re happy are easier to recall when you’re happy, and the memories you make when you’re sad are easier to recall when you’re sad.