Not really, I am relatively old, have always been like this and the set of people whose suffering would make me happy is small (basically people who fuck up the world at large for personal gain). I haven’t turned into some grumpy mean old guy who fantasizes about making a person who annoys me suffer, or even those who are locally a menace to people around them. Anger issues? Again maybe only against a very small set of people. I don’t think there is anyone around me that would categorize me as particularly angry.
I think the words you are looking might be frustration (at being able to do almost nothing when some people really fuck the world up) and losing hope (that there are just some people who don’t have a single ounce of conscience in them).
Not really, I am relatively old, have always been like this and the set of people whose suffering would make me happy is small (basically people who fuck up the world at large for personal gain). I haven’t turned into some grumpy mean old guy who fantasizes about making a person who annoys me suffer, or even those who are locally a menace to people around them. Anger issues? Again maybe only against a very small set of people. I don’t think there is anyone around me that would categorize me as particularly angry.
I think the words you are looking might be frustration (at being able to do almost nothing when some people really fuck the world up) and losing hope (that there are just some people who don’t have a single ounce of conscience in them).