I think I want to go back, not because of reviving something from that era, but for living as I should from the very start. I would probably wouldn’t struggling like I am now if I discovered my real gender waaay before.
Now I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of time from an era I should be able yo enjoy, but I didn’t. I was busy pretending to be a cisgender male. So I really reject not being my true self and its becoming a resentment.
Like… If I go back, I would at least try to be my real self and not get closeted as I got now
Saaame, but without those years I wouldn’t figure myself out. Mistakes are a price of progress (at least for my dumb ass 🙃)
The thing is… there was a time when I was about to get put of closet (as a gay man then), then stuff happened and I chickened, now as a (probably) non-binary person, I think If I were more open about my gender and oritentation probably it won’t be shocking for close people, at least what I hope for.