I didn’t expect it to end this way 😭. This is freaking heartbreaking

CW: Infodump 😆

I know this is totally different, but this hits home for several reasons for me:

  • I have a bf who loves me unconditionally
  • I cannot have his kids
  • He’s twice my age, 20 years between us. Obviously, I age like anyone else, but the implication is there…I don’t even want to think about that
  • I’m insecure as fuck and also need constant reassurance, lol
  • He never stops loving me, no matter what
  • He makes me blush (and wet) :3

I dread the fact that I’m so much younger. I hate it. I don’t even want to consider outlasting my bf as a real option…

When we were discussing me having SRS and I managed to convince him that it was something I wanted and needed, he pulled out a really serious subject.
He started saying things, like that I was on a good path in life and that if something was ever to happen to him…that I should live on happily and find someone to love me again…
And that was the only time I can remember becoming hysteric instantly, mid-sentence, from 0 to 100 in a split second.

I’m really not ready to go through that…so I’ll do my best for him. So that he’s healthy and happy and satisfied. I want him to stick around as long as possible…

  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
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    11 hours ago

    You can do it! Also, she found someone else who can make her blush now. Might be worthy of horny jail to say, but maybe she can pull of the other part too.

    CW: Response to your info dump

    I’m glad you have someone you can believe in when you don’t feel like you can believe in yourself, and I hope that you get to a place where you can believe in yourself over time. I’m cis, but that feeling of “not being who you want to be” is tough enough without sex dysphoria, so with any luck SRS should help with your confidence.

    I feel you on the “surviving your partner” fear, my wife is ~15 years older. I don’t like to think about it either. That said, my own grandmother is fastly approaching 90 years old and has had a couple of good friends (she won’t call them boyfriends) in recent years that as far as the family can tell have been really good to her and split on good terms.

    Last thing, and I hope it’s not a sore subject. If you want kids there are options. My wife and I were able to find success with donor eggs, but we were well aware of adoption options if that hadn’t worked. All depends on how big of a deal having kids is to you, and that’s between you and your BF.