You just reminded me of a memory that may have sparked my desire to transition.
I developed this one character for Dungeons and Dragons. Oh my God, I’m having a revelation as I type this!
Ok, so Calian is a Half Elf who’s mother was a High Elf and father was a Half Orc. Years ago, her grandfather on her dad’s side had to fight to be allowed to enter the stronghold of a female Orc. He won, and she chose him as her next of many husbands. They legit fell in love and had their son, Calian’s father.
So Calian is 1/2 Elf, 1/4 Orc, and 1/4 Human. She has slightly more pronounced canines and Half Orc eyes - mostly just the golden color irises.
Her parents perished in a racist’s terrorist attack who hated all half breeds. She was taken in by a group of nuns who maintained a church to the goddess Sune (remember, D&D). She grew up loved and to love unconditionally. Her more Orcish instinct to be a warlord clashed with her desire to love. And who deserved the most love and devotion?
Princesses.
Calian was so enthralled with the idea of saving a princess from danger that she would make up wild fantasies in her mind where she was the heroine who sought out and rescued princesses. This was her vow to her goddess before going her holy quest.
Calian took her job way too seriously and “searched” for princesses in very unlikely places. She frequented taverns to “save” the barmaids, or snuck into brothels to find her real princess she was destined to save. And she was a bit of a horndog but that never actually came up in the game.
And I realize now that she was who I wanted to be. I already had my princess, and after me married, my queen. Now I have two princesses to look after, and I adore them both.
This character has morphed over the years into another persona that I actually am interested in playing as in roleplay with my wife. Am I ever going to transition? Very unlikely. But I text her as this other persona, and it’s so nice to be me without having to change me. I still really dislike how I look and feel, but I am a coward who doesn’t want all of the hardships of becoming a woman. I’d rather press a button and POOF become one instantly. Oh well. A girl can dream.
You just reminded me of a memory that may have sparked my desire to transition.
I developed this one character for Dungeons and Dragons. Oh my God, I’m having a revelation as I type this!
Ok, so Calian is a Half Elf who’s mother was a High Elf and father was a Half Orc. Years ago, her grandfather on her dad’s side had to fight to be allowed to enter the stronghold of a female Orc. He won, and she chose him as her next of many husbands. They legit fell in love and had their son, Calian’s father.
So Calian is 1/2 Elf, 1/4 Orc, and 1/4 Human. She has slightly more pronounced canines and Half Orc eyes - mostly just the golden color irises.
Her parents perished in a racist’s terrorist attack who hated all half breeds. She was taken in by a group of nuns who maintained a church to the goddess Sune (remember, D&D). She grew up loved and to love unconditionally. Her more Orcish instinct to be a warlord clashed with her desire to love. And who deserved the most love and devotion?
Princesses.
Calian was so enthralled with the idea of saving a princess from danger that she would make up wild fantasies in her mind where she was the heroine who sought out and rescued princesses. This was her vow to her goddess before going her holy quest.
Calian took her job way too seriously and “searched” for princesses in very unlikely places. She frequented taverns to “save” the barmaids, or snuck into brothels to find her real princess she was destined to save. And she was a bit of a horndog but that never actually came up in the game.
And I realize now that she was who I wanted to be. I already had my princess, and after me married, my queen. Now I have two princesses to look after, and I adore them both.
This character has morphed over the years into another persona that I actually am interested in playing as in roleplay with my wife. Am I ever going to transition? Very unlikely. But I text her as this other persona, and it’s so nice to be me without having to change me. I still really dislike how I look and feel, but I am a coward who doesn’t want all of the hardships of becoming a woman. I’d rather press a button and POOF become one instantly. Oh well. A girl can dream.
Plus women are pretty.
Women are pretty