If I’m going to spend the next 300 hours staring at a character’s ass, I’m picking one I actually want to look at.

I’ve played most of the Tails of games, and switch to one of the women or girls as soon as they are available. That is until Tales of Xillia. It was the first one to give you the choice at the start of the game, and I played the whole thing as Jude.

You just reminded me of a memory that may have sparked my desire to transition.

I developed this one character for Dungeons and Dragons. Oh my God, I’m having a revelation as I type this!

Ok, so Calian is a Half Elf who’s mother was a High Elf and father was a Half Orc. Years ago, her grandfather on her dad’s side had to fight to be allowed to enter the stronghold of a female Orc. He won, and she chose him as her next of many husbands. They legit fell in love and had their son, Calian’s father.

So Calian is 1/2 Elf, 1/4 Orc, and 1/4 Human. She has slightly more pronounced canines and Half Orc eyes - mostly just the golden color irises.

Her parents perished in a racist’s terrorist attack who hated all half breeds. She was taken in by a group of nuns who maintained a church to the goddess Sune (remember, D&D). She grew up loved and to love unconditionally. Her more Orcish instinct to be a warlord clashed with her desire to love. And who deserved the most love and devotion?

Princesses.

Calian was so enthralled with the idea of saving a princess from danger that she would make up wild fantasies in her mind where she was the heroine who sought out and rescued princesses. This was her vow to her goddess before going her holy quest.

Calian took her job way too seriously and “searched” for princesses in very unlikely places. She frequented taverns to “save” the barmaids, or snuck into brothels to find her real princess she was destined to save. And she was a bit of a horndog but that never actually came up in the game.

And I realize now that she was who I wanted to be. I already had my princess, and after me married, my queen. Now I have two princesses to look after, and I adore them both.

This character has morphed over the years into another persona that I actually am interested in playing as in roleplay with my wife. Am I ever going to transition? Very unlikely. But I text her as this other persona, and it’s so nice to be me without having to change me. I still really dislike how I look and feel, but I am a coward who doesn’t want all of the hardships of becoming a woman. I’d rather press a button and POOF become one instantly. Oh well. A girl can dream.

Plus women are pretty.

Every time and I feel no shame.

Yeah, I blame NV and Fallout 3. The female player model starts out just looking dead eyed meanwhile the male one starts looking uncanny as a whole. Also Fallout 1 and 2 did not help in that regard, my Fallout 2 characters should all have severe STDs but at least ai get free shit and can give someone death by Snu Snu.

women are prettier damn it! and i want my character to be pretty!! >:(

Yeah, I mean, Im a man but would i have chose this for me. I dont know but let’s find out.

Back in the runescape days, I used to get tons of free shit by being a girl. When they stopped gifting, I’d convince them to come to the wild and kill them for the rest of their shit

In see a dude every day in the mirror. Let me have fun and see something different in videogames

I remember starting Genshin and given identical abilities, I preferred to look at a female character for the first few hours. I don’t project myself into games, I always feel like I’m playing the characters as themselves.

Yeah, I’m happy to play a variety of different characters in games. I don’t actually identify as Miner Willy.

If they won’t let me make a twinky guy then yeah (mainly an issue in Western titles)

I’m totally the type.

In my defense there are a lot of games in which I can play a white man.

In Saints Row, the clothing options are better for women, and fashion is a big deal. SR4 is better about men’s apparel than SR3.

But then I played women a lot in my TTRPG years.

I haven’t played some games just because main character was male

I also would rather play more games written for a female protagonist. 3 decades of male player characters is plenty.